Hollow Days In Hell

& with a snap the die is cast
caught out in the present with no future & no past
a quick reminder from below
I really haven't any clue how far I've got to go
there's exciting possibilities of pain & degradation
& unimagined vistas of boredom & humiliation

I take a breath & seize the moment
in these times of darkness & atonement
that taste of suffering & danger
didn't kill me, made me stranger
for all I know it's just as well
I spend these hollow days in hell

off the radar for a spell
anything I learn I'm going to try my best to tell
but it all so quickly turns to stone
I'd love to fight your battles but I'm busy with my own
now every day plays out the same, my hands are cupped around this flame
undermined by what defines me, creeping up I'm right behind me

not long since I glimpsed that portal
turns out that I'm not immortal
starting over once again
the world persists, it fails to end
for all I know it's just as well
I spend these hollow days in hell